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On this coming February 26th, I'll be joining an amazing team of Brazilian Female Artists to celebrate the International Women's Day by performing original Music and Literature of Historical and Contemporary Brazilian Women.
I'll share the stage with Ana Gazzola, Carla Hassett, Kana Shimanuki, Ana Barreiro, Debora Edler-Brown, Mariana Leite, Mariana Goulart, Sonia Santos, Katia Moraes e JP Mourão.
This morning I was going through some old emails and I found a really cool post I had written.
At the time, I was feeling the need to express my thoughts and wanted to start a blog. Time passed and did not continue with it.
The date was April 26th, 2008. Six months before I moved back to LA to reinvent myself.
This is what I had written:
“I want to create myself.
Choose my own path, suffer the consequences of my own mistakes. Those are some of the choices of this new way of living I’m taking.
After years of wanting to save the world of those around me, I realized that I was running from myself.
Regardless of the past, I am here now at this crossroads. Should I keep going down the same path or should I take a turn?
On this year of 2008, I'm gonna take a turn. I want to create my own path.
Listen to my inner voice.
I don’t want to watch my life go by, I want to live my life. I want to look back down the road and be proud of what has past.
I don’t want to be an extra on someone else’s life. I want to play lead role on my own life.
How? When? I don’t know. And I am not worried about that. I know the universe is going to take care of it. I’ll just make a move.
The first step is to make a decision.
Choose my own path and follow it.
That’s what I’m going to do.”
I had completely forgotten about this text I wrote 5 years ago.
But today I see that, had I not made that decision on that last Saturday of April of 2008, I wouldn’t be here today.
Sometimes it’s hard to believe that we have the power to change anything in our lives, but let me tell you, we do have it.
It may take a little while to get you to where you want to go, but with patience, dedication and persistence you will get there.
Just choose your path and follow it.
A couple of days ago, I had an experience with a friend where, one question I made, triggered a whole 45 minute discussion.
Things that had happened 5 years ago all the sudden were brought back to the present.
Issues I thought we were over, weren't. And even though I had already apologized for my acts, apparently it wasn't enough.
The question is, how do you recover from it? Saying I'm sorry doesn't really repair the damage. Once you hurt someone it's done.
I am not proud of what I've done, whatsoever. However, at the time it happened, I didn't know better. I wasn't aware the way I am today. I thought I was doing the right thing.
Why I did it? Was I too young? Too blind? Me, me, me? I don't know why. But, does it even matter? It’s done.
For a while I was at that position, grieving on it. Why did I act that way? Why did I do that? Punishing myself. Boycotting myself.
Until I realized that, in order for me to answer those questions, I needed to forgive myself. And not only forgive myself, but also I needed to accept myself for being the way I am. I needed to make amends with myself and move past it.
I should be glad that it had happened. Because it happened, now I am able to see that maybe there were other ways I could have reacted to that situation. And because of that, now I am capable of reacting differently in similar situations.
So once I expressed everything I just mentioned to my friend, I heard in his voice a beginning of an act of forgiveness.
We are all the same. That time it was me, but it might happen to him too.
It's good to realize that it all starts within us.
When he realized that I had forgiven myself for having hurt him, he was able to understand that, the pain he was still feeling was only real inside of him. And for it to go away, he needed to forgive himself for letting me hurt him.
It all starts with us. Anything you see on the outside is a reflexion of what's inside of you.
On that thought, I leave with a video of JP Mourão and I in Porto Algere, Brazil, back in July when we went for a short 'Volta ao Mundo' CD promo tour. Hope you like it!
Click here to watch Caro & JP Mourão Programa Radar Porto Alegre, Brazil
One day it hits you. Out of nowhere.
It's like someone turns the light switch on and suddenly you can see.
As if you zoomed out your vision on google maps and clearly you're able to visualize all the things that surround you and form your life story.
Thoughts, relationships, habits, unfinished projects or any other expressions of it.
And then you stare at it.
Look at the picture you're seeing. And you think to yourself, 'Do I like this picture?'. If yes, you do like the picture you see, then you keep going down that present path. If not, if you don't like what's in front of you, then you make some sort of change.
After all, as Einstein once said, insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
So if you wish to see a different picture, make a move towards a new reality, the one you want.
Focus on what drives you the most. And go for it.
Five years ago, that happened to me. Someone turned the light on and I was able to see my own life timeline laid out in front of me. Past till that present moment.
I became aware of which happenings triggered what reactions at various situations. Once I realized this dynamic of life, I also understood that I was in charge. In charge of my thoughts. In charge of the actions caused by my thoughts. And how everything else around me was a reaction to what had started within me.
Scary. But at the same time it made me feel some sort of freedom.
Freedom from myself. From the self I thought I was. Freedom from my own thoughts.
And scary because I was put in charge of me. It might sound weird, but until then I thought I was a victim of life. Blamed everything and everyone around me for my unhappy situation. And now there was no one to blame. But myself.
I wanted to go live in another picture. At least one that I created.
And so I did.
After seeing my life timeline, past and present, I chose to draw the next steps ahead, the future.
And here I am. Five years later.
Time to look at my lifetime again. Do I like what I see? Do you like what you see?
Decisions to be made.
Back in May 2010, my dear brother Quim Pierotto was spending some time here in Los Angeles, CA and shot this video of me and Antonio Cruz playing 'Cuidado' in a parking lot where we had just performed. 'Cuidado' was fresh out the oven back then, and listening to it made me appreciate it even more. It also made me want to write this post.
It's good to look back and see how much we've come and grown.
'Cuidado' is one of the results of that decision of mine of taking charge of my life. Of my story.
Take charge of you own life. Be proud of your mistakes. At least they're YOUR mistakes.
You only make mistakes because you were doing something. Don't let fear stop you.
Use your mistakes as stepping stones to where you want to go.
Hope you like the video :)
Click to watch Cuidado (Parking Lot)