One day it hits you. Out of nowhere.
It's like someone turns the light switch on and suddenly you can see.
As if you zoomed out your vision on google maps and clearly you're able to visualize all the things that surround you and form your life story.
Thoughts, relationships, habits, unfinished projects or any other expressions of it.
And then you stare at it.
Look at the picture you're seeing. And you think to yourself, 'Do I like this picture?'. If yes, you do like the picture you see, then you keep going down that present path. If not, if you don't like what's in front of you, then you make some sort of change.
After all, as Einstein once said, insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
So if you wish to see a different picture, make a move towards a new reality, the one you want.
Focus on what drives you the most. And go for it.
Five years ago, that happened to me. Someone turned the light on and I was able to see my own life timeline laid out in front of me. Past till that present moment.
I became aware of which happenings triggered what reactions at various situations. Once I realized this dynamic of life, I also understood that I was in charge. In charge of my thoughts. In charge of the actions caused by my thoughts. And how everything else around me was a reaction to what had started within me.
Scary. But at the same time it made me feel some sort of freedom.
Freedom from myself. From the self I thought I was. Freedom from my own thoughts.
And scary because I was put in charge of me. It might sound weird, but until then I thought I was a victim of life. Blamed everything and everyone around me for my unhappy situation. And now there was no one to blame. But myself.
I wanted to go live in another picture. At least one that I created.
And so I did.
After seeing my life timeline, past and present, I chose to draw the next steps ahead, the future.
And here I am. Five years later.
Time to look at my lifetime again. Do I like what I see? Do you like what you see?
Decisions to be made.
Back in May 2010, my dear brother Quim Pierotto was spending some time here in Los Angeles, CA and shot this video of me and Antonio Cruz playing 'Cuidado' in a parking lot where we had just performed. 'Cuidado' was fresh out the oven back then, and listening to it made me appreciate it even more. It also made me want to write this post.
It's good to look back and see how much we've come and grown.
'Cuidado' is one of the results of that decision of mine of taking charge of my life. Of my story.
Take charge of you own life. Be proud of your mistakes. At least they're YOUR mistakes.
You only make mistakes because you were doing something. Don't let fear stop you.
Use your mistakes as stepping stones to where you want to go.
Hope you like the video :)
Click to watch Cuidado (Parking Lot)